I am genuinely upset. Not that I've ever pretended to be sad, but this time it feels so real that I cant help it but feel this way. I keep thinking, what if I had not done what I did back then? What if I had just been a bit more brave and not such a chicken?? Would things be different now? I just really really feel like I just threw a diamond out the window. How could I have given up on someone so right for me? Yes, I admit, it was my fault. I didn't want to say it was my fault even though I knew it was, but now I do. And I am to live with this thought forever. Like I've said before, you don't know what you've got until its gone.
p/s: I still remember all the little things.