In case

I know

One day eventually

Yeah, I know

One day I'll have to let it all go

But I keep it just in case

Yeah, I keep it just in case

In case

You don't find what you're looking for

In case

You're missing what you had before

In case

You change your mind, I'll be waiting here

In case

You just want to come home

Of exams and oversleeping

Hi again, its already May. Time really flies. 5 months of the year 2013 have passed, I will turn 22 in 6 months, start a new academic year (hopefully) in 4 months, and before you know it, another year has gone by.

It's exam season again. The season of stress, pimples, late nights, panicky moments, cramming sessions, and tons of coffee. I'm surprised my skin colour isn't coffee coloured yet. Sat for my criminal paper last Tuesday and you know what??? I BLOODY OVERSLEPT FOR LIKE 3 HOURS. Don't get me wrong, I did not oversleep and miss my exam. I actually intended to wake up at 3 (ya ya, very ambitious of me) to do some last minute reading, but instead of hitting the snooze button, I hit "dismiss". Once I hit the dismiss button, that was the end of my ambition. Next thing I knew it was already 6.30 a.m. Had I not planned to wake up at 3, I was going to get up at like 5.45 and get ready and at least be able to have some breakfast and leave the house at 6.30. And had it not been for my sis who woke me up at 6.30, I would have missed the exam! I got up, and in 10 minutes I was out the door. I AM VERY THANKFUL FOR MY SISTER =D and right now I'm just thinking, I stopped my alarm, didn't set a new time to wake up, and if my sis didn't wake me up, I would have totally been screwed man. Ughhhh, I get the shivers every time I think of this incident. 

I knew I wasn't going to be late, exam started at 9, but I just didn't like to rush, especially on exam day. I like to set out early, and be able to move at a reasonable pace. Plus, going out early gives me some time/space to find alternatives IN CASE any mishaps or misfortunes occur. Such as, the most typical (and most likely to happen) Malaysian public transport problem : TREN ROSAK, or you get in the train, and it just moves at this snail-like pace (yes, happened to me once in A-levels on an exam day too) or, it could be any kind of mishap, like falling into a ditch or getting lost. Plus I had to switch trains at Masjid Jamek station, and take the Sri Petaling line to Chan Sow Lin station, and this takes TIME. I was really worried something might go wrong, like me taking the wrong line, or being unable to find the exam venue. In case you didn't know, my college is too small to hold major exams like these, and I'm taking an external programme, so we have to go to other colleges and use their exam halls. I don't know if its because its an external thing, or simply because college is too small. This time we were at Help College of Arts and Technology, and last year it was at University Malaya. I prefer this year's venue coz it's easily accessible, whereas Uni Malaya was just too damn far and my phone got stolen there and it just created bad memories for me.

Anywayyy, I'm really really really really thankful nothing happened, no accidents or mishaps of any sort. I'm just really lucky I did not actually oversleep, the fact that I almost did just scares me. I keep thinking of all the what ifs. I cant thank God enough. And, the exam went well. I'd like to stay positive all the way till results day and then chicken out and only check my results a few days later hahahaha!

Okay my blogging feeling is gone, i just got distracted by something else. So goodnight and bye! Till next time! =)

Mehhh

'Sup people!! Okay this is actually me checking my makeup with the webcam, not a camwhore shot. YAH I HAVE MIRRORS AT HOME, was just too lazy to get up.

Anyway, this was before I went out to catch up with a new friend I'd met back in Kuching who was in town last week before flying off to Korea. It was undeniably a great night, probably had too much to drink though! He'd ordered me a beer before I arrived and I gulped down probably half of the 500ml glass of Dunkel (dark German beer). And then I gave up because I felt so guilty for drinking on an empty stomach. So we went for Japanese dinner where we drank again! This time it was saké. After dinner it was more drinking and talking at the same German bar with this beer tower. I cant remember clearly but I think it was about 2 litres?  I know, it looks and sounds crazy for two people to be drinking a beer tower. But we actually had only a bit left at the end coz my cab was here and I had to go. We could have finished it though! But still it was a good night! Felt good to take a break from all the studying and the stress. 

Anyway, I just wana say, drinking isn't bad for you. HAHAHAHA good advice aint it?? And also, getting to know someone a little better wouldn't kill you. This is however, hands down, PRETTY GOOD ADVICE. 

Dream came true

Jonas Brothers Live In Malaysia

24th October 2012, Stadium Negara

Best FIRST concert experience ever! And best birthday present I've ever given myself :D I will never forget that surreal feeling I had when the brothers walked on stage. It's like all those teenage years of fan girl-ing was so worth it, all the years of hoping to see them finally came true. I still can't believe I was there, almost at front row, singing along to the very first boyband I'd ever been SO CRAZY about. Also very glad that I only spent RM88 on the cheapest free seating ticket, but ended up at the front section called The Pit, which is the most expensive free standing zone and it cost RM288. Don't ask me how, I'm lazy to explain now coz this is as long as I can write, if I go on, I will really be writing grandmother story. But anyway I was VERY LUCKY, THANK YOU GOD.

Sighhhh having this bittersweet feeling right now just looking at this picture :')

Actually I intended to do a long and detailed post on this experience. But at this rate I'm going, it's not gona happen anytime soon. Hehe

Wordy post

There I was, the 16 year old me, eager to start a blog, gain readership, post pictures and just write anything and everything and publish it for the world to read. I almost want to shake my 16 year old self upon reading back on my old entries, but then again, I also miss how I posted SO MANY pictures and how I had the drive to blog almost every day.

Now, here's the 21 year old me, getting lazier to blog each day. You can clearly see my blogging pattern, my posts went from abundant to scarce. Nowadays each time I open up blogger and intend to create a new post, I just get distracted the minute I am face to face with this blank white box just waiting to be filled with words. I go on Facebook, Twitter, blogshops, play Candy Crush like I did just now (I'm out of lives, which is why I'm here now. Send me lives please?)

Anyway, I think part of the reason why I don't blog as often as I used to is because, number one: I don't have anything to talk about. No interesting stuff like advertisements, which country I visited recently, or which event I attended. And not even OOTDs (Outfit Of The Day). Unless you wana read about what I did today? Which is wake up, brush my teeth, do the laundry, candy crush, eat, study, eat, and go online. That is what I would have written at 16. Not now though, coz my everyday routine is pretty much the same as I am on study break now therefore I am AT HOME most of the time studying so there's nothing much going on. Being at home means I don't dress up hence, no OOTD. Even if I do go out, which I do mostly on weekends now, I don't take pictures and post them up because I either forgot or just cant be bothered. And believe me, I have never posted a picture of myself in my OOTD or even used an OOTD hashtag yet, and I would like to keep it that way for now so as to not get engrossed in it the way I gave in to Candy Crush and Instagram temptations! I'm trying to stay away from these two life-ruiners now that I am nearing my exam period!

Okay! Now reason number two: Even if I did something fun/went somewhere nice/experienced something funny or interesting during the week, I wouldn't actually sit down with the motivation and the dedication of a real blogger and actually write about it. You know why? Because I probably must have mentally written the posts in my head. You know, I'd be thinking like "Oh, I should totally blog about this! Here's what I'd write later...or never." And then I go on to blog mentally, and those posts never make it to my actual blog because I either forgot, cant be bothered again, or if you just knew me, I'm just plain lazy. Haha. But yes, I think this reason plays the biggest part as to why I don't blog so often now. I am just motivated and dedicated in another way hehehe

Third reason: I've grown up. At least that's what I'd like to think. At 16, I would write about almost anything, my blogging spirit was so high I die a little inside now just looking at how little I've blogged lately. I think right now I'm just more careful with the things I write and pictures I post on the internet.

And last but not least, I HAVE TWITTER. That's why. With twitter on my phone I can say what's on my mind like right here right now, but then there'd be very little people who would see it because I have very little followers because I didn't announce it to the entire world on facebook that I have twitter because I simply don't want la.

Okayyyy, so my point is, I will still keep this blog alive. Frequent blogging or not, it doesn't matter. As long as I update once in a while. Because lets face it, for some strange reason, times have changed, even I have changed. I started this blog, so I promise to keep it going, regardless of my readership and everything else. And I'll also tryyyy, to blog a little bit more. A little more than usual, but still a little less than before. There, I wrote a blog post about blogging on my blog. Can you say that 10 times faster? Cheers.

Confused

That one song that will remind you of that one person forever, no matter how much time has passed. I'm caught in a position I don't want to be in. I don't know what to do.

Photo

A photo can say a thousand things
But it can't say the million things I wanna say
A photo can capture the way we were
But it can't capture the way we are
'Cause you're far away
What it's like to know you
What it's like to touch you

Catching feelings

The sun comes up on another morning
My mind never wakes up without you on it
And it's crazy to me, I even see you in my dreams
Is this meant to be? Could this be happening to me?

Quickie

Best night of my life. Ever. Still cannot get over it. Still cannot get that blog post done. Ehehehehe. But there, just look at this picture, and be happy for me, be happy for me that I finally got to see MY TEENAGE DREAM, and how near I was to the them! *jubilant look on face* Goodnight!